ONE. A few weeks ago I took a huge leap of faith and asked my boss if I could go down to part-time at work. It was a momentous decision for me and one that I spent a lot of time thinking about and praying over. If you'll recall, going back to work after I had Mac was hard, but within a few weeks, we fell into a nice routine and we all adjusted very well. Of course I missed him terribly during the day, but I felt like I got a lot of great quality time with him in the evenings and on weekends. I'd take vacation days during the week and we'd spend time together. As he got older (and started sleeping better), it even became easier. We'd meet up for lunch and music class during the workweek. I enjoyed my job and my time away and felt like I was doing pretty well with work/life balance.
And then came Mim and turned our world upside down. Going back to work after maternity leave this last time was completely different. I was no longer worried about whether she'd be safe during the day, I was worried about missing out on everything while I was away. I think after the first child I realized how true those cliches are about how fast it all flies by. I blinked and I had a 2 year old - I didn't want that to happen again. She was my last baby...I wanted to soak up every moment I could. Suddenly what little free time I had was now split between two children and I didn't feel like either one of them was getting enough quality time. The more time I spent with them, the more time I wanted with them. I no longer felt like I could handle it all. Whatever work/life balance I had before was completely gone. I felt like I was drowning at work, couldn't concentrate, didn't want to be there. My mind and heart were somewhere else. I started making stupid mistakes at work that I never would have made before and I knew it was only a matter of time before something had to give.
So I sucked up my pride and asked for a modified schedule. Honestly, it felt like admitting defeat. I've been stuck in that "I can do/have it all" mentality for such a long time, that it felt like a slap in the face to realize that maybe I can't really do it all. Or maybe I can, but it's not going to all get done well and I'm going to be miserable trying to keep my head above water. Luckily, I have a great boss and work for a company that is willing to let me give this a shot. I'm now 80%, which means I have one day a week (Wednesdays) off to spend with the kids. I'm slightly terrified that this might be career suicide or a slippery slope, but I will admit that it's fantastic!
One day a week might not sound like a huge difference, but it's a HUGE difference. It's only been two weeks, but I've already noticed a major improvement in my attitude, patience and stress level at work and home. During my days in the office I can concentrate on my work now and not feel so overwhelmed about missing the kids because I know I have a full day with them all to myself soon. And I've also noticed an improvement in Mac's attitude and feelings towards me. I spent my first day off with him and gave him my full attention all day and that made such a difference in his behavior. Suddenly he was asking for me to give him a bath, not daddy. That hasn't happened in months! I know this was the right move for me and my family. It took me a long time to get here, but I know that no matter what happens with my career, I'll never regret spending this time with my family.
TWO. If you follow me on Instagram, you may have seen the announcement that I'm going to be a Product Scout for Savvy Sassy Moms. I'm thrilled to be working with such a great company and an awesome group of moms. I'll be periodically reviewing new baby, kid and family products that I think you'll love, both on the SSM website and this blog. I'll also be participating in some really great giveaways and contests (we just gave away an awesome Joovy stroller), so make sure you're following me on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter for announcements.THREE. In the last week, Mim has turned into an eating machine! She can't shovel the food into her mouth fast enough! She loves everything. Yesterday I gave her a chunk of steak and she chewed/sucked on it for 45 minutes and I had to pry it out of her cold clammy claws to get her out of her high chair. She can take down a strawberry in under a minute. Whole bananas! It's insane! Baby Led Weaning for the win!
FOUR. I might be addicted to baby moccasins. Maybe. Is there a support group or something?
FIVE. I finally bit the bullet and signed up for Stitch Fix. I know, I know...I'm way late to the party. I blame this on being old and totally not hip any more. So my first box showed up a week ago and it was amazing! I don't know why I waited so long to try this. Polka dots and stripes and pants that actually fit. Consider me impressed.